I am a big fan of Anais Nin, her writings resonate with me on profound levels, speaking to my soul in ways that are both stirring and enlightening. Whenever I stumble upon her quotes, I find myself lost in contemplation, uncovering deeper meanings from her simple yet thought-provoking words. This particular quote has served as my guiding light during moments of uncertainty and crossroads.
Approaching my 35th birthday in a matter of hours— mom said I was born at 14:30 PM (I was hoping I was an early bird), I find myself standing at the crossroads of reflection, looking back on the winding path that has led me to this moment. Turning 35 feels like a significant milestone – a time to pause, take stock, and acknowledge the highs and lows that have shaped my journey thus far. For one to embrace change and growth they need to prepare for uncertainty and vulnerability. I am a self-proclaimed mistress of self-reinvention having embarked on countless fresh starts without trepidation, for I am invariably certain that what lies ahead will be infinitely better—and it consistently proves to be so.
There is power in surrendering control, in embracing the present, and in welcoming the future with open arms. The courage to acknowledge that life's twists and turns are beyond our dominion, and to navigate them with grace, fortifies my spirit as I journey through this uncertain path.
My journey to 35 has been punctuated by moments of euphoria and heart-wrenching sorrow—a rollercoaster ride of triumphs and setbacks, laughter and tears, love and loss. Yet, upon reflection, I realize that each experience, whether blissful or painful, has contributed profoundly to the person I am today—flawed and scarred, yet resolute and standing tall.
There have been moments of sheer exhilaration – the highs that make life feel like a beautiful adventure. From landing my many different jobs when I needed them the most to exploring far-flung corners of spaces that bring me peace and tranquillity, these moments have filled my heart with boundless joy and gratitude. They are the memories I treasure, the ones that remind me of the infinite possibilities that lie ahead. I am currently feeling so overwhelmed with imaginations of what lies ahead, I have this strong feeling that I have finally reached my peak and I am about to fly —an unwavering resolve to persevere, no matter the obstacles.
Love, often a subject I cautiously approach, has proven to be the most unpredictable and disheartening of them all. At 35 one imagines themselves settled with someone to grow old and grey with, a sure thing that has seen some years of an unshakeable bond and commitment. I am not one of those people who dream about marriage but a life partner is something I find myself thinking about a lot lately. I remain grateful for the love I currently receive, amidst the disappointments, there remains a glimmer of hope— I find comfort in knowing that life is messy but infinitely beautiful in its imperfection.
So here's to 35—a year of self-discovery, reflection, and growth; a year of unapologetic self-love and embracing life's myriad adventures and endless possibilities. May it be adorned with moments of joy, tempered by fewer moments of sorrow, and embellished with all the beauty that lies in between. May I navigate this beautiful, tumultuous journey with an open heart and an unwavering spirit of gratitude for life's abundant blessings. May I possess the wisdom to discern the right balance in giving, taking, speaking, and acting; the mindfulness to savour every precious moment; and the humility to refrain from tainting new beginnings with past mistakes. May I always be present in the moment, fully immersed in the richness of life's tapestry.
Here’s to wishing every 35 year old the most beautiful experience of their life, may the new year hold all the desires of their inner being.
Stay blessed.
What a journey to 35.